I received an e-mail awhile back asking my opinion on cross dressing? This started an e-mail relationship with who we will call J. I told him I/we do not practice it except for me having my husband wear panties sometimes, so am not versed in this activity. I did tell him I would post something for him if he sent me what he wanted to say. Here it is.
He was hoping for feedback and comments, so please do if you are interested.
Though I did not know it at the time my first teenage sexual fantasy were as a submissive male. As a young teen I worked as golf caddie and masturbated to thoughts of me being nude while woman whose clubs I was carrying were clothed, as they golfed they would fondle my cock/ balls , at end of the round if I was good caddie I would get to orally serve them. A second fantasy began when I would pick up my girlfriend for dates, her Mother would tell me to take off my clothes than train me to orally satisfy her daughter. With marriage my wife of 40 years and I began an enjoyable sex life starting with vanila sex, use of sex toys, watching porn, Strap-ons, Femdom, together visiting a ProDom, Swinging and now to my surprise Cross dressing. We are not an FLR/WLM marriage. My wife has gently assisted my femme interest by buying me panties, bra, nylons, dresses, wigs and how to apply make-up. Once a week I clean the house dressed as a woman and we have had fun. I enjoy the feeling of woman’s clothes and have become a slut for my wife’s finger up my ass as she sucks my tits. The further I have gone down this rabbit hole of cross dressing the further I want to go. I am not attracted to men, I am straight but strangely enough to me CD/TV porn I find very arousing. I told my wife I want to suck a cock for her but she is not ready to see her man do that. She is ok with me further exploring my femme side with others. I do not feel like a woman, no hormones, no gender change etc. Been a successfully competitive man in my career and athletically. I have read submissive males love woman so much they want to become the woman. Perhaps this is just a natural evolution of a sexual submissive male and at 60+ years old I am now comfortable expanding my sexuality.